Dead Inside (if only)

Nothing i do seems right
Is this even worth the fight
Jumbled laws I must abide
Its best I'm dead inside

No I am not blue
Your Colors have no damn clue
The world has turned grey scale
All efforts are doomed to fail
This seems a fruitless ride
Its best I'm dead inside

I look but can not see
This "truth" you preach to me
How my wrong becomes your right
My expression becomes your plight
Always on the wrong side
Its best I'm dead inside

You feel I am a fool
For not following your rule
You hug me kiss me then cut me down
Then you say that I'm the clown?
If I have to see the world through your site
It's best I'm dead inside

Didn't know I meant to be rude
My fault, it stared a feud
My words are now on mute
And I pledge to follow suit
I bow before your pride
Its best I'm dead inside